Fragmentation is what I know from my up-bringing, from the society I live in. My search/my path led me to integration.
The sensation of connectedness, of centeredness, is the red line; I feel when I am in it and when I am going away from it.

The acting work gave me a save playground to explore and experience in a way I was not able to do in real life. I got into sensory work, emotional work, all connected to my physical body and understanding. On a personal level I learned to integrate emotion, senses, intuition and intellect, it had a lot to do with being in the moment as well. The acting offered me tools to do it. The process effected not only my acting but as well my being, my way of living.

Another precious source is nature, experiencing and observing nature, the rhythms and patterns of it. Being in nature brings me into another rhythm and awareness; I would say it helps me to be in my natural state. It connects me to simplicity; it connects me to the consciousness of being one part of nature, integrated in the whole system. An intuitive awareness of the intrinsic value of every being arises, an intuitive understanding of living with nature (as supposed to exploiting it) grows and along with it the wish to protect it.
This kind of understanding will root all the intellectual insights humankind has by today. It was/is alive in many indigenous peoples/tribes which had/have consequently a sustainable culture. It got lost when the human being regarded himself as separate of and superior to nature, that being the ground on which all the quick changes within the last decades could happen. It led to an unbelievable dimension of exploitation and destruction of nature and as well of human beings.

The human being has the capacity of thinking, of intending, of choice. To be aware of and disidentify from the mind process enables me to be connected to intuition and integrated in the natural cycles and rhythms of my surroundings as a part of it. For the quality of my own live I am learning to reset my mind, to integrate systemic perceiving and thinking.

In this process I came across permaculture when I was spending several months on organic farms.
Permaculture is based on observation of nature, how life evolves, organizes and sustains itself. From this process it derives design principles and tools which one can apply to any system, let it be a garden, a farm, a career, a social system.
I began to observe myself the same way I would observe any other ecosystem. This meant that to questions like: how do I function? How do I go about things? How do I get what I need? How do I perceive the world around me? How do I think and why?..... I would add: what is the connection between this and that, what resources do I have (on any level), what do I need and what can I give, where can I create cycles, what is my network, can I support important functions in my life through various elements, etc....
So I am using nature’s principles and the tools of permaculture to create a dynamic and resilient system: my life.

As everything is naturally evolving in cycles, also my learning process is not a linear one.
Now I am at a point where I want to share my experience and knowledge, to give to people and nature since I got so much from them.

With Lars Schmidt I am facilitating and developing workshops to give access to an integrated view of life and we elaborated a vision of a place where we can materialize our thoughts and experiences to share it with other people, a center for transformative learning.